I had a good day

i had a good day.
i had coffee with Peter.
i walked to my psych appointment.
i walked the dog.
i bought some lingerie.
i talked to my Mom.
and i just finished dinner with Janie.
we shared a pitcher of sangria
and laughed a lot.

i had a good day.

It is a good SUN-day

so it is sunday.
i started the day as i usually do by speaking with my mom.
after that i went out to brunch with peter.
we went to a new place here in the hood.
the place was packed, the food was good but the service was a little long.
good thing we always have lots to talk about.
no shortage of conversations with us.

after brunch we went to peter's place and ate the gauffre
that i had picked up for our desert.
i left at about three o'clock as he had to go to work.
i went home to chill with the pussycats
but i did not feel like staying in.
so i called janie to see if she wanted to go and play urban petanque.
no go.
on my own again.

so here i am at the cafe, writing.
i was knitting for awhile.
then i wrote to my cousin on my mother's side.
and now, the blog.
so overall it has been a good day.
it would have been nice to have a little more company but....
so be it.
i am having a good day.
right now it is raining.
that makes me happy to watch the rain.
plus it cools things down a bit.

i do not know what i shall do this evening.
but hey!
maybe i will make some salads so that i have healthy food for the week.
tomorrow is my first day back at the gym.
ABSOLUTELY! so i will need FOOD!

anywho.....c'est ça!

Looking for JOY....

i am at the cafe waiting for janie.
i do not know what we shall do this evening but
at least the company will be nice.
and she is fun and funny.
and it is a beautiful evening out.

i am still in my funk and feeling pissy about it.
maybe i will run away and join the circus.
or move to the forest and live with the animals.

or maybe i'll just suck it up
and be where i am.
because wherever you go, there you are anyways.
soooooo......

where did i leave my JOY?
in my jeans' pocket?
up my sleeve?
in a hole in the bottom of the sea?

JOY, JOY...
come out, come out
wherever you are.
i need you JOY,
to get rid of my funk.

Q:did you know that arm&hammer now sells kitty litter?
i see the link but still....
what a leap!
now that is vision.

just a thought....

Knitt, pearl, knitt, pearl

So i am hopping from activity to activity.
First some knitting.
Now some writing for my blog.
And then I want to study my totem animal medicine cards.

Find a solution to this funk

i did some more knitting on one of my various projects already started.
two scarves and two baby blankets.
those are my current projects.
oh!
and a throw.
not one of which is yet finished.
no matter.

i thought the creativity of my knitting would get me out of my funk.
but it didn't.
so i knit for a while on my balcony and then i moved on to other things.
i gotta find a solution to this funk 'cause
it is really a pain in the ass.
feeling like this.
there are so many things that are bigger than my funk
and yet i am stuck here.
blah!blah!blah!

Where do I start?

I am feeling a little off these days.
I do not know what I need to change in order to feel better.
???
I know that something has got to change.....but what?
I think that I need to get more into the world.
If that makes any sense.
I do different activities, but always alone.
almost, always.
I think I need more intimacy.
Not in the sexual/romantic sense.
Just in the human sense.
I need more interaction with new people and new activities.
maybe I need to be challenged.
Expand my comfort zone.
Push my limits.
Get creative in some new way.
Resource my vital energy.

Where do I start?

Refreshing rain and totem bears

it is pouring rain outside.
and i love it.
even though i don't currently have an umbrella.
who cares?
the rain is so cleansing.
it seems to release all the negative energy in the air.
it is like pressing "refresh".
so lovely.

yesterday i went to the cafe near my house to do some research.
and there was a guy there that i know from the cafe.
he is a superb artist.
and he drew me a bear.
i called the bear Rudi because he looks Russian.
like a circus bear.
so i hung up the drawing on my fridge.
bears are my main totem animal.
so i feel good when their images surround me.
protected.

i am still feeling sad about having put Miss Petunia down on Friday.
she was such a good cat, a pretty girl.
i just could no longer give her the level of care that she needed
with her diabetes and all.
i just could not handle it anymore.
i miss her so much.